TWO LESSONS I HAVE LEARNT FROM 15TH RELAPSE
“What have you learnt from this relapse, John?” – I was asked. The complacency, the emotional triggers, the imbalance in my daily life, the boredom and more. I have been asked this question 15 times since Jan 2019.
As a matter of fact, I could have learnt but not applied enough effort into my recovery.
What are the stories behind my troublesome? What am I still resisting? Or has my addiction taken control of my behaviours and thoughts every day?
The answer is “I don’t know” because till now, there are some parts of me which are not congruent, and I am still a student who is learning how to master his life every day.
When I am choosing to walk on my path without an expectation, I gain a true awareness and consciousness towards my recovery journey